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901 views posted 22 May 2015, 16:05
Okay, I'm a music collector ... and perhaps I've been a bit too undiscriminating, cuz I have discovered some nasty stuff in my media collection here of late.▼18 comments
Because I like the music which I download from Hearts of Space Radio Show every week, and share with y'all, I kinda got the notion that Ambient music is kinda like "heavenly" music. I'm inclined to like the idea of music from heaven. However...
there's no such thing as an absolute, not in music, or in heaven, or anywhere else!
I found a torrent here recently - 30 gigs of "Ambient" music (mostly European music, I believe), someone's entire collection of Ambient music, I'd say. So.. hooray, a plethora of my kinda music, right? I downloaded it, and I've been wading through it, identifying it. Most of it is not identified well, or at all... just music with song titles in languages I can't understand. Well, I've found there are some interesting pieces in that mystery pile! Some of it's downright scary - and I have to say, some of it sounds to me like it's been created by a demon band. Horrid, scary, mean and nasty stuff! So, NOW I'm going through my whole music library, finding demons ... and yeah, you betcha!... excorcising demons! *Shudder* Demons like ambient music too, I guess!
1021 views posted 20 May 2015, 02:29
Okay, I have replaced my uTorrent client completely with a new one, after the previous one was damaged by Malware Bytes Pro, and the Windows Security updates (I believe they damaged it, anyway). My torrents seem to be working correctly again.▼33 comments
I had to revert to Malware Bytes "common" trial version - got rid of the "Pro" version that I had. It was too aggressive. Maybe I need to learn how to "tweak" it better.
I've had one heck of a run-in with Spotify.com in the last couple days, coming right on the heals of that torrent corruption battle. I don't usually go to online music websites, but I get regular "invitations" from Spotify, so I tried it out for a couple weeks, looking for missing songs for albums that are incomplete. Well, I just learned about Spotify.com's bad behaviors on the Internet, their piracy of member's bank accounts when people quit their service. What a nightmare. Their website is riddled with advertising interrupts, so listening to music on there is annoying! However, 2 days ago, I thought I would try to listen to one of my own songs on their website. It led to such a scary mess. I won't get into it here, but I had to find where my entire music library disappeared to - I have a Terabyte drive full of music, the whole drive was wiped clean!
But as it turned out, all my music was cloned and put in a subdirectory on my external hard drive - inaccessible to me until I found out where it was hidden. It was "hidden in plain sight" in a cloned copy of my external hard drive, in a cloned "Music" folder. I had to go to the top of the file tree to see the architecture, and find the music! However, my original Music folder was still in place, with all the subfolders for every artist and all the albums! They were just EMPTY! That's all.. so my Windows Media Player was showing me that all my music was gone!
Anyway, I found the cloned folder last night finally (I could NOT for the life of me figure out how 965 GB of music could disappear off my hard drive after one morning dealing with Spotify (which was supposedly looking at my music to create a link to my personal files so I could listen to music there!)
I have fixed the problem, moved all the music back to their proper folders, and removed the cloned Music folders & cloned drive. But I think I got a year older in the last 3 days dealing with this. I have a LOT of music that is NOT replaceable, not recoverable on the Internet without paying a huge price for it. I don't want to lose it.
Now I am waiting for the other shoe to drop. Trouble comes in 3's. I've had 2 so far. *Shiver* OH, I was on Spotify.com's Community Forums pages looking for some way to deal with Lost Music too - and there were quiet a few complaints on there about missing Player Lists, missing Music. I didn't find any solutions there!
1168 views posted 13 May 2015, 16:20
Okay! So... after 2 days of repeated frustrations over corrupted torrents, I think that I've solved my torrent corruption problem. I really must offer my gratitude and thanks to those who have helped me solve this, and to all the rest of us here who have been so patient. I'm sure this mess has looked like a "tempest in a teacup" to some of you.▼34 comments
To Gazza, who identified the Microsoft Security Updates that he believes are major players in this little SNAFU, (you know what a "S.N.A.F.U." is, don't you? >>> Situation Normal - All F***ed Up<<<), I offer my undying gratitude and my first $$$million.... To The Punisher, I extend my thanks for your clear thinking, problem solving, and offer of more help. And to all who have offered constructive comments, and sympathy, my sincere appreciation.
I've learned: 1) Don't trust Microsoft to have my interests at heart... 2) Don't let Microsoft install every "security update", Windows "tweak" and "new Idea" (HEY! Why don't you try THIS?!) they flood my PC with everyday. (It took 3 days (3 DAYS !!! ??? *&%#) for Microsoft to download the 100s of updates they made t o Windows 7 after I reinstalled it on my new hard drive. And now my PC runs slow as Molasses in January again. UGH.
2622 views posted 11 May 2015, 23:31
Okay ... I have re-uploaded FIVE torrents today - all of which were corrupted by the Microsoft Security Updates which occurred on my PC in the last 24 hours (4 yesterday, and maybe 25 or 30 today).▼26 comments
Frankly, I find it very hard to believe that those Microsoft updates were not intentionally designed to corrupt torrent files - all my most recent files (and none of the older ones which were still on my utorrent client) were stripped, leaving nothing but a text file, which amazingly was able to be uploaded by the torrent program to downloaders!! That smells of deliberate design to me!
Since the only torrents affected were those created in the last 24 hours, I believe Microsoft's designers found a way to exploit our Torrent identification system here! I noticed the corrupted torrents displayed the random numeric IDs they were assigned here by the KAT system, and NOT my torrent titles! In any case, I have re-uploaded these torrents this afternoon:
Mike Batt Discography (1977-2007)(13 albums)
Mike Batt - The Hunting of the Snark Broadway Musical (1984)
Aeoliah-Mike Rowland - Transmissions (2015)
The Cascades - Hits and Rarities (1993)
Renaissance - Dreams and Omens - Live at the Tower Theater (2008)
1627 views posted 19 Oct 2014, 18:15
And for the record, clear the decks a bit...▼319 comments
A couple days ago, I made a comment on a torrent that I had downloaded, wherein I noted that the torrent was excellent .... it did download very quickly, it was complete, the books were (or so I believe) readable. Unfortunately, I was not able to tell at first glance by the book titles that the books were of a genre that I normally do not download, certainly don't read, and ... well frankly, I don't like the genre.
Normally I don't make personal comments about my preferences in torrent quality replies. Certainly I know better, having been on the same campaign as others here to stop downloaders from voting their personal social or religious views in torrent comments. I know the quality patrol doesn't approve of that. I don't approve of that.
However, I slipped and gave the torrent a negative thumbs down, despite the fact it was an excellent torrent by one of our most trusted and best torrent uploaders. Couldn't help myself - the books were a big disappointment to me.
That being said, I want to share a bit of the uproar that ensued because of my (admittedly prejudiced) decision... Immediately got a "tut-tut" response in the reply stating that my comment was inappropriate (what I actually said was that the books were not my personal reading preference.
Okay, I saw that, agreed in principle, and deleted my comment. But that wasn't enough to satisfy the Moral Police... and I got a nice long PM accusing me of being a homophobe, etc. Okay ... now the dukes are up.
First, a "homophobe" means.. someone who is subconsciously "afraid" of gays because he/she is secretly gay. I almost laughed. I'm neither gay, nor am I the least bit "afraid" of gays, or of being gay people.
Secondly, and the bigger issue for me, is this notion that seems to prevail today that since the decade of the "Gay Liberation", we all have to jump onboard the band wagon and applaud endlessly a lifestyle that, regardless of the fact it's a normal part of life, and 20% of us are leaning that direction, is NOT the prevailing lifestyle of the majority, nor is it necessarily a sign of special favor in the eyes of God, or the government, or the rest of us.
What really annoys me these days is that this whole business is so in our faces... all of us, that the majority of us (YES, the Majority! of us) are afraid to speak up and decline to voice our profound approval, to say nothing of our acceptance, of a lifestyle that is a minority preference, a sexual orientation, and at times an offense to some of us. We don't HAVE to like it that everyone is not like the average girl or guy. We don't have to approve of any particular lifestyle, just because others do. And we are NOT required to hide our distaste of a social practice just because it's the current Fad of the Month.
Personally, I think one's personal preferences where love is concerned is just THAT - personal. I don't have a life companion, and I don't need one.... nor do I want to hear (on a daily basis sometimes) about "how gay it is to be gay" ... and "Let's All Be Gay Today". I remember a time when this topic was taboo, not discussed in the market place, the town square, and the church pew. It was pleasant to go through the day being with people who didn't feel it was necessary to announce their sexual orientation as if it were the Pulitzer Prize and expect everyone to applaud them for their brave acceptance of their orientation.
Some things in life are better kept at home, and not paraded on the street. I realize there are still people who feel the "Gay Libration" has not completely liberated everyone who has that orientation. However, there will never be total equality for all, on any issue - and it's time for us to move on... to some other obsession.
Finally, I must say that I will not "hush up" my mouth and not say what I think just because someone here dislikes my point of view. We have a wonderfully astute and liberally tolerant community here, which I love. We do NOT have a crowd of zombies walking lockstep in a parade of the "Pop Cause of the Day". I'm an independent now, as I ever was. And homophobia is not one of the hangups I enjoy. I don't have to like it just because anyone thinks that I must. And I don't have to be dishonest about my values because they are "old fashioned" and temporarily out of favor, either.
16 views posted 08 Jun 2014, 04:16
Hope you are all having a lovely Spring!▼0 comments
227 views posted 14 Mar 2014, 20:51
So I'm sitting here today listening to the music of Enigma - quintessential vampire mood music, if ever I heard any such thing. No, it's not "Vampire Weekend" (which I think is more heavy metal than I like). In any case, I have a few pieces in my music library by different artists that I think fit into this category - melancholic or raging, but with a distinct undercurrent of lust and a ghostly yearning.▼13 comments
I'm in a particularly downscale mood these days - vampire music appeals to me in times like this. The cause of my moodiness is mundane, not spiritual - I'm suffering through the adjustment period with my new dentures. It occurs to me that having dentures is very much like waking up to discover that:
1) You can't eat regular food anymore, which of course, contributes greatly to...
2) a ravenous appetite... but nothing you try that is "regular stuff" satisfies the hunger, and in fact, ....
3) eating gives you pain - because your dentures are hard, but your gums are soft, and you can't bite down on anything, or chew on anything.
I can't help but wonder if this is the kind of suffering a newly made vampire experiences. Does it maybe hurt, like hell, to bite into the neck of somebody?
Turning away from my morbid fascination with my aching mouth, as I listen to the yearning, plaintive music of a band that forged the definition of dark music - the music of lust and pain - I have to give some thought to why vampires seem to be so totally obsessed with wooing and seducing a lover before they bite her / him. It must be because they yearn so much after life... and the procreative act - the urge to mate - clearly is the very definition of the natural imperative.
You rarely see movies made about the horrors of the Nasferatu - those moldering, ancient dead who are a horror walking. They might want to woo and seduce their victims, too - but I think, mostly they just want to drain them dry, because they've lost all vestiges of their humanity centuries ago.
All the vampires in the popular romance novels are young and handsome (or beautiful) ... aching in their apparent beauty. But I've read enough on the subject to know that the allure is actually a clever spell ... a "glamour" cast over the victim. I think one of the most realistic stories I've seen in a TV series showed the vampire in his natural form, and then again, after he cast a "glamour" on himself. He was hideous in his natural form - a typical "nosferatu".
Makes me shudder. I read paranormal romances for the thrill of those intense emotional encounters between men and women. I hate the way the image of the Nosferatu keeps popping up in the midst of my reading, as I think about what some poor girl is actually enduring, while thinking she is "in love" with a vampire.
There's a big difference between "love" and "lust".
215 views posted 07 Mar 2014, 20:45
Because we are approaching the US National holiday of St. Patrick's Day, which honors an Irish Catholic saint, I've been listening to some music along that general line, among which is an album by Celtic - "Braveheart". The album is purely instrumental, and very soothing, but the album title is, of course, remiscent of the film featuring Mel Gibson as a Scottish warrior and (arguably) a hero in Scots history.▼41 comments
I saw the film - once - I couldn't bear to watch it a second time, after what happened to William Wallace at the end of the film. I was appalled at the graphic depiction of him lying there while somebody (a druid priest? a vindictive Englishman?) cut his heart out while he was still breathing. I cried all the way out of the theatre. These days, I cry everytime I listen to the music from the film.
But I was totally amazed when I read the history of William Wallace, and what they did to him in real life at the end, and I also read the story of Robert the Bruce, because I thought perhaps the film had something to do with HIM, instead of Wallace.
As it turns out, what was done to William Wallace, who did NOT deserve what happened to him in the least!!!, was far worse than what was depicted in the film! He was hanged, but before he died, he was drawn and quartered, his manhood cut off and burned before his eyes before that happened - the most unbelievably cruel and horrid thing I ever read about in history.... altho I am sure other atrocities have been committed by men of low birth who lack souls.
But what is most tragic about William Wallace is that he was buried in an unmarked grave, and "forgotten" by history. The man was a hero of his people, and his tragedy makes me weep, and it makes me very sad. I am thankful that Mel Gibson took it on himself to tell Wallace's story in grand style on the American screen! Although there have been many who have claimed the film was full of historic errors, the truth is, he told the story of a Scots hero who was gravely mistreated, and left to lie unrecognized for his worth in an unmarked grave. He was, in fact, tried by King Edward 1st and died horribly by his order.
For one year William Wallace was the Guardian of his people before relinquishing his seat to Robert the Bruce, who then became King of the Scots, a role he held for 23 years before dying at age 54. I think it's interesting that it was NOT William Wallace's heart that was taken from his body - it was Robert the Bruce's heart - removed after his death and buried in a separate place from the rest of his body.
However, at this time of the year, when some of us in the USA are making light of St. Patrick, and parading around in foolish green hats and silly green outfits, I think it's worth a few minutes of our time to think about the Scottish Hero who gave his life for his country.
7 views posted 16 Jun 2013, 18:38
It's been months since I've posted anything in my blog. (Not since January, actually.) I've been feeling the "tug" to write something here for awhile now, but it's hard to get started on these things sometimes.▼10 comments
I've been absent from KAT for several weeks (months?) more-or-less - just stopping in to read personal mail, check on torrent uploads (grabbing one here and there)... and hoping to see a friend that I know here when I do. I've been a bit lucky bumping into friends when I've done that, but then I'm off again for days. I remember when I was a daily "groupie" here, got on here in the morning and stayed all day! Life changes and the river's flow marches on, carrying us away.. carrying me away.
But I'm still loyal to KAT, and still come here regularly, if not everyday.
I hope you are all doing well this summer. I'm a little blued out right now, so this is a super short message, but I wanted to let you know that I'm here, and that I haven't forgotten any of you, and that I still think you're a great group of friends! *BIG HUG*
10 views posted 19 Jan 2013, 20:55
This morning, after several days of feeling rather depressed about my lifestyle, I got a very nice comment from someone on my Wall - he was asking, basically, where I have been the last several days. And he offered to cheer me up, if cheering is what I need. He was concerned by my absence here at KAT of late.▼37 comments
I thought that his offer of friendship and support was very kind. It's always good to be told that you are missed when you pass through a "friendship zone" after being absent awhile. So I sent him a little message to thank him. Of course, that led to a discussion about what's bothering me.
I thought it was interesting that he should mention I might be experiencing a "test" right now - because I've been enduring some depression the last several days or so. I mentioned to him all the reasons why I don't have a life companion, and what I've accomplished in my life to make my solitary existence comfortable.
But what really came through to ME after justifying to HIM why I don't go out and socialize more in public places is that, basically, I'm too lazy to bother. I had some good excuses for not doing so, too! But it still boils down to the fact that I can't get up the motivation to make the effort!
No wonder I am lonely, alone, and uncomfortable with being that way. I don't really want to be alone ALL the time.
I have another flaw that I don't like to look at. I told my friend that I don't like people much - in most situations - because there's so much selfishness, disinterest, laziness in the world. I remember learning the lesson years ago that anytime you point your index finger at others, there's always 3 more pointing back at you.
It's not a comforting thought that perhaps I am lazy, selfish, disinterested - but to be honest with myself (since for certain I will have to be honest with The Maker sometime in the future) I have these qualities too. Where does this leave me - more uncomfortable for sure - but just as annoying to be around as any other person I might decide is too annoying to be around.
LOL - being honest with yourself is an uncomfortable experience sometimes!